December 13, 2008

• Blessed

  As I’ve mentioned, I’ve been struggling a lot with this time around, both pain wise and emotionally.  I’m also so fatigued it’s beyond ridiculous.  HOWEVER…I am the most blessed person in all of Michigan, the Midwest, and maybe the country.

  Wednesday my emotions got the best of me (AGAIN) and I started crying during my prep period.  Part of it is that as soon as I stop teaching, I realize how tired and in pain I am, so it’s always better to be teaching.  Part of it is that I think I’m this big fat giant burden on everyone, and I’m letting everyone down.  The kids don’t get the normal musical experience in the spring when I’m like this.  They don’t get their papers back as quickly.  The laundry and housework doesn’t get done in a timely fashion, and dinner is sometimes a thrown together mess.  And while I just don’t care about how it affects me, I do care deeply about how it affects my students, my husband, my family and my friends. 

  This time of year is a huge burden too, because we have 60 pages due to the printer for yearbook before break, and we give exams before break, and it’s CHRISTMAS for goodness’ sake!

  This morning though, I related the following blessings to my mom, who always ALWAYS is there to listen to me (and is in my top ten blessings of all time along with my dad, brother, husband, Rachel, Lenore, church and school.)

  1.  People are bringing me meals three days a week now.  Healthy, actual meals that aren’t made by tearing the plastic wrap off the top, exposing the mystery meat to the microwaves, but keeping the mystery veggie covered so it doesn’t dry out.  We’ve already had chicken divan, cabbage rolls, and chili and cornbread!

  2.  One of the moms made two of my husband’s favorite kinds of Christmas cookies and sent them along with their meal.  This was SO important to me because Mike is so important to me, and HE doesn’t have cancer or diabetes, yet he doesn’t get the stuff he used to.

  3.  A mom of a freshman that I had NEVER MET came in on our yearbook deadline night and stayed for three hours proofreading yearbook pages.  Mr. Wesley, one of the religion teachers at school was there too doing the same thing.  As a result, I got to do the things I needed to do that WEREN’T editing, and we submitted MORE than the 60 pages needed last night!!

  4.  Several students and friends just independently decided I needed presents, and I’ve received two handmade hats (for my inevitable baldness) sugar free candy (YAY) and a flamingo tape dispenser, to name just a few things.

  5.  My student aide, Megan, is the greatest student aide in the history of ever.

  6.  My house is very nearly clean enough, and I have six elves coming over tomorrow early afternoon to decorate my house!  Then we have our faculty Christmas party.

  Today I’ve been cleaning (slowly) and getting excited about having decorations starting tomorrow.  I can see the light at the end of the tunnel – and it’s Jesus, of course – represented by his loving servants on this earth.

  I AM blessed.

   

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